So today is the day when it was finalized threw my dad's biopsy that he has cancer...he is in Cincinnati's Va Hospital.
My dad has it in his Lung, Pancreas, Liver, Abdomen, an Kidney...they are doin a catscan on his brain as well to see if any has gotten there. Chemo we arent sure will help him at this point...he has been the hospital since Nov. 13th...he was only in there for bronchitis an a touch of amonia, now it is something stronger something worse something that will eventually take his life...i wanted a painless death for my parents i dont want him to suffer...
He told me on the phone today not to worry so much about him, an that he has lived a long life....an GOD know's what he is doin up there! He is tryin to be strong for us he knows we love him so much...i dont want to make this harder on my dad to deal with the fact of cancer...but i PRAY for so much more time i know age doesnt matter but i am only 23 i dont want to lose my dad...i dont think anyone is ever ready to lose a loved one especially their child or parents i suppose are the hardest! I just have to take the tim ei have left with him, hopefully they will let him come home no one has told me what stage cancer he is in! they just know it has spread threw out his major organs. i guess i will find out more during this week...
Sad holiday once again, gramps last year i didnt want to celebrate turkey day felt empty..an now this year bad news all over again...i just wish he was home for turkey day. thats all i want let him be home by christmas i want to spend the holidays with my family together makin memories!
just keep in thoughts an prayers an as well i hope everyone enjoys their family an never takes them for granted!!!